Tonight...

Sad days are turning into sad moments, so I guess that's a good sign that I'm moving along this road of grieving.

Today has been a series of these sad moments. I cried while I washed dishes this afternoon and tonight my mind is full of thoughts as I've taken time to pull out a few of Connor's pictures and look at them.

They've made me realize how glad I am that we made the decisions that we did.

When we were told that he had Trisomy 18 we were given the choice to terminate the pregnancy. And now that I am where I am, I see what our family would have missed out on had we ended his life. I am so glad we carried him to term. His life was mere minutes - but so worth all we've gone through. We would have missed out on SO many neat experiences had we terminated the pregnancy.

The day I got married was a special day. The day our first child was born was even more special. And the day Connor was born has truely become one of the highlights of my life.

I was very touched by something an aunt and uncle wrote in a letter to us shortly after Connor died -

"Your faith and resolve have lifted us in valuing life in whatever condition it is granted."

Many parents are given a lot of pressure to terminate their pregnancies once an abnormality is discovered. Difficult times and difficult decisions for them.

I'm glad we made the one we did.