Another first...

Today I held my first baby since Connor died.

And I cried.

My poor friend Amanda just watched me hold her sweet little girl, while tears fell from my eyes. It must have been hard for her to watch.

I kept apologizing for crying, but I wanted to hold her little Maggie. She is about the size that Connor would have been by now and I wanted to remember what it is like to hold a little one. I was finally ready for that "First."

Thanks my friend.